the first song.
this song, this song gave me questions. at first, this song gave me curiosity because it kept giving me different and unusual vibes every time I heard it from the radio.
then this song started roaming in my head and then it was hard to forget. the lyrics were so intense and the melodies were so ambiguous. I was taken aback. I had so many questions and wonders while listening to this song. I kept wondering and questioning and sometimes I felt blue, happy, angry, upset and confident. this song gave me so many moods which were so unpredictable. I did not know whether I liked the song yet but I just wanted to listen to it. because it gave me also a stable heart. it gave me a bliss as if I were protected. and then after a while, this song was stuck in my head. I could not forget it and I did not want also. the song was inside my head every day, and I was missing it even when I was listening to it. this song made me feel good, carefree, protected, nervous, anxious, rebellious, and even jealous. this song gave me things that I was wishing to have. as predicted, this song was in my head for a while. this song never got tired appearing in my head. this song always came and left as it wished. and then at the end, slowly but sure, the song was tearing me apart. the song was breaking my soul and my heart. this song made me numb. and then the song was fading. fading, fading until it went out of my head. although there were some melodies left, the whole lyrics were blur already. blur and faded. but although it was already forgotten, the song remained in my playlist. hanging there, unplayable.
the second song.
nah this song, this song was unpredictable. this song was nothing and just like some common songs. nothing was special with this song. at first, this song was just like other songs. I did not like it. I did not listen to it and I had no intention to listen. then one day, the song appeared on my radio. my own channel of radio. it kept playing, it kept coming and because my previous song was fading, I decided to give it a try. I listened to it. after many times of repeating, I gradually liked the song. the song somehow gave me laughing, longing, and fun. things got funnier and enjoyable. I started missing this song and I wanted to listen to it every day. the song was like a vitamin to me. a vitamin which could make me childish, submissive, and excited. this song made me feel like a child who still needed guidance. sometimes I felt bad about this song. sometimes I felt enough of the random feelings that it could bring. but then, it was not that hard letting go of this song. it was not that hard. it was even going back to the moment when I felt nothing toward this song. well, the song stopped in my head. it was gone. it was deleted from my playlist.
and the third song,
this song. this song was familiar to me. I knew this song for a while. I only listened to it when it was played on shuffle. I did not really hear it and I did not really enjoy it although it was a fun song nothing was also special about this song. this song was like other songs out there. I did not listen to this song, and I didn’t give a damn about this song. until one day, when I did not have any songs left, and I had nothing better to listen, and because it was a fun song, I let myself enjoy that song. I opened my ear to listen and I personally put it in my playlist. then I listened to it. I was singing along and I remembered the lyrics. this song was surprisingly nicer than I thought. this song gave me a nice feeling, convenience, confidence, warmth, protection and a desire to enjoy my life. this song was playing in my head and I kept playing it and it always appeared on my shuffle. this song gave me different sensation and I liked and enjoyed it. this song showed me another version of my self and I liked it. the song was really fun. this song made me forget about the two previous songs. this song made me know myself better. this song taught me to be more patient. this song taught me to accept myself, my true feelings and being honest. this song made me growing up.
this song taught me to let things go.
2011–2019
